Jyra had no idea how long she had slept before Berk awakened
her to give the news about the fleet cruising ahead of them. While the work
with Leonick hadn’t been physically demanding, it left her wanting nothing more
than to lie down for another few hours. Instead Jyra’s mind was back in action
as she sat on her cot, considering Neeka’s information.
Why would a Nilcyn fleet be heading for Tyrorken? TF owned
the only valuable assets on Jyra’s home world and they were well protected.
What if the fleet fired on the resistance ship? Berk said Mastranada didn’t have any projectile weapons on board. Fleeing an
attack was their only defense.
Jyra put her forehead in her palms and rubbed her scalp with
her fingers. The moment she left Tyrorken, she no longer recognized the pace of
her life. It felt as though no time had passed since she left her planet.
Despite the risk of an attack, Jyra felt a sense of relief for the presence of
the Nilcyn fleet. Were it not for the enemy ships, Mastranada would still be flying toward Tyrorken at top speed and
there would be no opportunity for rest.
The comfort of this idea lasted mere moments because Derek
entered her thoughts next. Neeka was right. Every delay extended Derek’s
imprisonment. Jyra tried not to think about what the TF agents might have done
to him, but she hoped they had at least had the kindness to bandage his leg.
She imagined helping Derek limp down one of the sterile corridors of the TF
complex, guiding him to safety. She had only been to the building a few times to
visit her parents at work. The hallway she envisioned resembled the one that
led to her father’s office. Jyra remembered then that they didn’t know where TF
was holding Derek.
Ignoring the urge to lie down, Jyra left her room for the
cockpit. She couldn’t sit doing nothing while the ship sat motionless in space
and Derek languished in a cell. Neeka was still in Berk’s seat, her elbows on
the console and her hands clamping her head, forcing her eyes to remain on the
monitor.
“Everything all right?” Jyra asked, taking her seat. Neeka
didn’t break her gaze with the screen even as she replied.
“Yeah.” The sound of her voice contradicted the word. Jyra
glanced at Neeka’s monitor and saw the red of the code characters marching
across it.
“What are they saying?” Jyra said.
“I don’t know,” Neeka said. “I’m trying to remember where
I’ve seen this code. It’s bothering me so much, I can’t get to sleep.”
“Would it help if we got moving again?” Jyra said.
Neeka finally looked away from the screen.
“It might,” she said. “If you think it won’t upset Berk too
much.”
“The Nilcyns are beyond eyesight now,” Jyra said, surveying
the star-studded canvas ahead. She powered up the engine thrusters and felt the
vibration climb out of the floor into her boots.
Neeka smiled, switched off her monitor, and stood up.
“Time to give sleep another try,” she said, walking toward
the exit. “Thanks,” she added.
“Get some rest,” Jyra said. “We’ll be there soon, I expect.”
She transferred to Berk’s seat, turned the monitor back on, and pulled up the
coordinates Berk entered into the nav computer. They had at least four hours of
the journey left. Jyra flipped a switch and the proximity radar map filled the
screen. The pulsing destination dot flickered over Tyrorken. The Nilcyn fleet
was about halfway between Mastranada
and Jyra’s home world.
Jyra swallowed hard, unable to keep from thinking about her
parents. What would they do after their daughter destroyed their office? Would
they come with her or remain on Tyrorken to make a new life?
She could not deny she missed their faces and the comfort of
their embrace. The feelings didn’t warm Jyra as they once did. Thoughts of her
parents were now overshadowed by Dario’s death, his funeral, and how Jyra had
been contracted to follow the same line of work. Her parents had set it all up
and though she knew she played a role in fracturing the relationship with her
mother and father, she thought they were more responsible. She tried to control
her breathing, which became more uneven as she reflected on her home life.
“One thing at a time,” she told herself. Jyra switched the
monitor input again and saw their arrival estimate had increased. She
remembered what Berk had said about the Drometica and Tyrorken rotating in
opposite directions. Whatever coordinates had been entered, the planet would
likely make another full turn on its axis and bring the destination closer to Mastranada.
The sound of boots thudding on the steel floor announced
Berk’s arrival. Jyra turned to face him as he filled the cockpit entrance.
“Why are we moving?” he said.
“The fleet’s far enough ahead,” Jyra replied. “And Neeka’s
right. The longer we sit out here, the longer Derek is at the mercy of TF.”
“I gave the order to cut the engines,” Berk said.
“And I followed that order. Now I’ve restarted the engines.”
“Because of Derek,” Berk said, taking a seat in Jyra’s usual
chair. “You’re afraid of what’s happening to him.”
“Aren’t you?” Jyra said.
“Yes,” Berk said. “But I don’t let that fear dictate my
decisions. You start acting on feeling alone and you’ll lose focus.”
“I’m also trying to carry out the plan, which is to get to
Tyrorken,” Jyra said.
“What matters more?” Berk said, unscrewing the cap on a
flask. “Reaching our destination or rescuing Derek?”
“Why does it matter?” Jyra snapped. “How long were you
planning to have us wait out here? Come to think of it, who put you in charge?
I thought Macnelia was leading this attack.”
Jyra felt a surge of satisfaction to see Berk swelling, as
though preparing to shout a reply. Her irritation blocked out any fear or
consideration of Berk’s size or possible temper. His face contorted and he
turned away, hunching his shoulders. Jyra stifled a cry of surprise as Berk
grunted and punched the wall, sinking his fist into the metal. Berk raised his
head to gulp whiskey from his open flask, which he set on the console. He
swiveled toward Jyra and stared at his knees.
“Macnelia is the leader of the resistance,” Berk said. “But
she’s had a rough few weeks. As I said, too much emotional influence can
interfere with one’s actions.” He opened and closed the fingers he had just
rammed into the panel.
“That’s what’s happening to Macnelia right now,” he
continued. “It’s happened to me and I don’t want it to happen to you.”
He paused
again, but finally lifted his head and Jyra saw Berk’s glittering eyes staring
into hers.
“Feel what you are going to feel, but don’t let it lead you
to do anything irrational,” Berk said. “When I drink, it dulls the rash actions
my emotions command. Something leftover from my hospital days.”
Jyra felt an urge to cut the engines again. She glanced at
Berk’s injured hand and saw dark bruises forming on his knuckles. Still shaken
by his physical outburst, Jyra tried to take the conversation in a new
direction.
“How do you know Macnelia’s upset?” she said.
“I talked to her,” Berk said. “It turns out—” he paused once
more and Jyra could tell he was deciding whether he should share the
information.
“She’s obviously angry about the time bomb,” he said.
“She was angry at you for accusing her of setting it
incorrectly and sabotaging the resistance,” Jyra said.
“That’s how it appeared,” Berk said, nodding. “But after
discussing it with her, she believes she made a mistake. Macnelia’s mad at
herself and the anger is compounded because her error nearly destroyed all of
us. Add in her personal turmoil and it’s enough to unhinge anyone.”
Jyra wasn’t sure what to think. She was getting used to the
bombardment of questions that tended to rush into her mind, as though the words
she heard shattered a dam holding back the thoughts.
“What happened when she set the bomb?” she said.
“She doesn’t remember,” Berk said. “All she can recall is
taking pictures of the main cavern and walking to and from the battery bank.”
“There’s a gap in her memory?”
“I don’t know. Haven’t you had times when you wanted to
recall something specific, but all you can remember is something that took
place around the time of what you’re seeking in your memory?”
“I guess so,” Jyra said. “I wonder if Neeka’s going through
something like that right now.”
“What do you mean?”
Jyra explained about the code Neeka swore she recognized,
but that she couldn’t recall where she had seen it before or what it meant.
“Maybe her worries about Derek are interfering,” Berk
suggested. “Macnelia is also upset about what might happen to him.”
“She hasn’t seemed that concerned about Derek,” Jyra said.
“Because she hasn’t shown it,” Berk said. “She didn’t let
the weight of it get to her until now. The simplest way to describe Macnelia at
the moment is she’s dealing with a lot of repressed sadness. She’s been too
busy to feel, but the impact finally broke through and overwhelmed her.”
Jyra thought of the bomb riding underneath the ship. She
hoped Macnelia had been of sound mind whenever she worked on the explosive. Leonick
had helped out, too Jyra reminded herself, and the brief worry passed.
She was about to inquire if Macnelia had mentioned anything
to Berk that referenced her comment about being left behind on Drometica, but
Berk pointed at the screen by Jyra.
“What’re they doing?” he said, leaving his chair to crouch
beside Jyra, who swiveled to stare at the monitor.
The radar map showed the Nilcyn fleet had reached Tyrorken.
The ships remained visible, which meant they weren’t penetrating the
atmosphere. The fleet moved into a different formation, becoming a tight
crescent that spun with Tyrorken’s rotation.
“They’re targeting something,” Berk said. “If they hold that
position, we just need enter the planet from the side opposite them. Keep the
engines at full and we can get there before the fleet comes around again.”
A fresh thought of her parents’ safety replaced the flood of
questions about Macnelia in Jyra’s mind.
*
Mastranada glided
onward, closing in on Tyrorken. Berk and Jyra delved into the ship’s computer, pretending
to be interested in running more diagnostics. Instead, they both sought work to
block out their real concerns. Jyra could only stand twenty minutes of the
mindless search on the monitor before her curiosity got the better of her and
she left the cockpit hoping to talk with Macnelia.
“We’ll need to fill up the water tanks soon,” Berk said, as
Jyra crossed to the exit.
“I wouldn’t trust the water in them now given how long this
shipe was likely in the yard,” Jyra replied. “Then again, I wouldn’t trust the
water on Tyrorken either.”
She passed the galley and, out of the corner of her eye, saw
a shadow moving on a wall inside the room. Jyra stepped over the threshold and
saw Shandra crouched by a crate, unloading the food from it and stacking the
goods in a lower cupboard. Though she wore a long-sleeve shirt, one of the sleeves was
pushed back, revealing the scars on her arms. She looked up at the sound of
approaching footsteps.
“Can I help?” Jyra asked. Shandra nodded. Jyra knelt down
and began pulling cans of soup from the crate.
“What’s this?” she said, staring at the unfamiliar label.
“Tomato soup,” Shandra said.
“Never heard of it.”
“Most people I meet haven’t,” Shandra said. She yawned as
she took the can out of Jyra’s hand to place it in the cupboard.
“Can’t sleep?” Jyra said. Shandra dropped her arms to her
sides, tugging the crumpled sleeve down over her skin and crossing her arms.
“No, I can’t,” she snapped. “Does it matter?”
Jyra pushed herself off the floor and opened her mouth with
no idea what she was about to say.
“What is with everyone?” she demanded. Shandra’s eyes grew
wide with shock and she leaned back toward the crate like a cowering pet.
Jyra turned on her heel and stalked out of the galley,
wishing she’d bypassed it in the first place. She wasn’t sure if Macnelia
wanted to talk, but she had to try. Jyra knocked on her door and waited. When
the door didn’t open, she knocked again.
After a minute or two, the door slid back and Macnelia stood
behind it, her hair tangled and the skin under her eyes sagged.
“What is it?” she asked.
“The Nilcyn fleet ahead of us has moved into an attack
formation around Tyrorken,” Jyra said. “We’re heading at full speed to enter the
planet opposite the Nilcyns.”
“What Nilcyn fleet?” Macnelia said, rubbing the back of her
head. “What are you talking about?”
“I thought—” Jyra realized right then that Berk hadn’t
actually told Macnelia about the enemy ships.
“May I come in?” Jyra asked. Macnelia turned away from the
door and sat on her cot. Jyra closed the door and sat in the nearby chair,
which was studier than the one in her room. Macnelia looked sickly in the light
reflecting off the pale green walls.
“There is a Nilcyn fleet ahead, likely the same one that hit
Horbson,” Jyra said. “If all goes according to plan, we’ll be through
Tyrorken’s atmosphere before they can detect us.”
“That’s a big ‘if,’” Macnelia said. She held up her hand
with the tips of her thumb and forefinger nearly touching. “I’m this close to
calling this whole thing off.”
“What do you mean?” Jyra said. “We can’t. Derek needs our
help.”
Macnelia seemed to be deflating where she sat. Jyra hardly
recognized the vibrant woman she had talked to in the presence of the bomb she
designed.
“We can do this,” Jyra said firmly. “We’ve done so much and
gotten this far.”
“I’ve been thinking a lot about this mission since I got the
news,” Macnelia said. Jyra didn’t have to ask; she knew “the news” referred to
Dario’s death.
“I’m wondering what good can come of more carnage,” Macnelia
continued. “When we drop the bomb on those TF people, they have families and
people who care about them and who are going to miss them as much as I miss
Dario.”
A sudden surge of comprehension coursed through Jyra as she
realized Macnelia struggled with guilt similar to her own regarding the death
of the shipyard guard. For a moment, it was impossible to see any distinction,
but the difference emerged.
“That may be true,” Jyra said. “But as you told me, this is
about more than that. TF threatens the future of the entire planet. It’s on the
cusp of compromising every human life on Tyrorken. The families of the TF
employees might have to mourn their loved ones from the comfort of a transport
as they fly away from the dying world, but at least they’ll be alive. This
resistance represents a last stand for Tyrorken.”
“You sound like you should be in charge of this campaign,”
Macnelia said, finally allowing a small smile to creep across her face.
“Berk said you were leader,” Jyra said.
“I suppose,” Macnelia said vaguely.
Jyra took a deep breath, realizing she was about to reveal
that Berk shared information from his conversation with Macnelia.
“Do you remember what you were thinking about when you set
the time bomb?”
Macnelia’s smile vanished and her expression became cold.
She glared at Jyra, but then directed her gaze at the floor, squinting.
“I was thinking about Dario,” she said. “I was thinking that
I was about to avenge his death. But I had competing thoughts that were quite
similar to the ones I just shared. Would this mission get back at those
responsible for Dario’s death? I still can’t answer that question and I keep
expecting a definitive reply to present itself. While I’m waiting, we’re on our
way to fulfill the mission anyway. So it sounds like I’ve already decided. But
of course I haven’t. These thoughts keep going around, like a ship circling a
planet and they distract me. That very distraction nearly took out this ship
and everyone on it.”
“Why did you tell me you wouldn’t have been surprised if we
left you behind?” Jyra said.
“It’s obvious, isn’t it?” Macnelia said. Her lips curved into
a wry smile. “I thought I was going crazy. No resistance needs someone in that
state because they make mistakes. There’s a big difference between planning an
attack like this and then actually carrying it out. I can handle the slow
buildup, but the rushing execution brings out the worst in me. During the
planning stage lives generally aren’t put on the line. Now we’re on our way to
destroy who knows how many.”
“It’s worth it,” Jyra said. Macnelia wiped her eyes and
pushed her hair back with one hand.
“I’m glad you think so,” she said.
*
Jyra wished she could keep working on the energy cores in
order to ease her mind. As she wandered through the ship, she thought about the
question she’d blurted after the frosty exchange with Shandra. It was easy to
understand Neeka’s concern for Derek. Jyra found it harder to pinpoint the
trigger of Macnelia’s misery, but Berk’s idea of repressed feelings seemed likely.
Of course, Berk was also distressed, but Jyra figured he was agitated over her
and Macnelia’s wellbeing. She couldn’t determine the source of Shandra’s
irritation and wondered if anyone aboard might have any clues. As far as Jyra
could tell, neither Craig nor Leonick were affected by the gloom that had
spread throughout Mastranada.
Still absorbed in her pondering, Jyra returned to the
cockpit and saw Berk sitting in front of his console.
“Any more news about our water supplies?” Jyra said.
“It’s more fascinating than you can imagine,” Berk replied.
He threw back his head and drained his flask, which he dropped to the floor.
Jyra noticed three others scattered around his boots.
“How many flasks do you own?” she asked, scooping them up
from under him. She screwed all the caps on and dumped the collection on the
console.
“Six,” Berk said. “Why? Do you have one you want to give me?”
“No,” Jyra said, taking her seat while trying to ignore the
dented panel next to her. “It just looks like you’ve been drinking more than
usual, though there’s nothing usual about it.”
“That’s reminds me of something unusual I found,” Berk said,
sitting up in his chair. “Apparently, the air mixture in here is higher in 02
than most ships. I know Leonick was using a torch in the engine room and I
think the air in there is probably even enough for that. However, open flame
elsewhere might be a bit risky.”
“Does anyone aboard smoke?” Jyra asked.
“If they do, we’ll know soon enough, won’t we?”
“I’m serious.”
“I haven’t seen anyone with cigarettes,” Berk said. “I think
we’re safe.”
Jyra saw Tyrorken looming before them and leaned back to
check Berk’s screen, but it was too far away to see clearly.
“What’s our arrival status?” she asked.
“We’re about two hours from the new coordinates,” Berk said.
“They’ll be moving away from us soon, though. That said, I think we’ll be on
the ground in no more than three hours.”
“I might get some more sleep if you’ve got things squared
away here,” Jyra said, standing and stretching her arms behind her head.
Berk reached across the console to access the air processor
controls and his sleeve brushed the empty flasks. They clattered to the floor
and he sat back to stare at the mess. Then Berk glanced at Jyra over his
shoulder.
“I’m all right,” he said. Jyra raised her eyebrows in reply
and left the cockpit.
She settled on her cot, surrendering to the fatigue that
crept in from her extremities. The barrage of thoughts lost their distinction
and entwined with each other. As she closed her eyes, Jyra envisioned the ideas
coalescing in a long, shining rope that stretched into the depths of her mind.
Sleep switched off her consciousness and she murmured to herself in the
darkness of her room.
“I’m more than these thoughts.”
*
The cot slid sideways and Jyra rolled off of it. Though
disoriented and still half asleep, she threw out her arms and braced herself as
she was pitched into a corner of her room. The gentle vibration had been replaced
by a constant lurching of the ship. Jyra retrieved her boots, which had
migrated to another corner, and pulled them on. Clinging to the wall of the
passage, she made her way to the cockpit. Berk was where she had left him.
Macnelia clung to back of his chair and a dusty glaring light flooded over the
consoles. A particularly wild jerk threw Jyra into the cockpit and she caught herself
on her chair. She hastily took her seat and clipped into the safety harness.
The roar of air rushing over the exterior of the ship filled their ears.
“What’s going on?” Jyra shouted, as though she were speaking
in the middle of a hurricane.
“Local air pressure’s too thin to support us!” Berk shouted.
“We keep hitting patches that slow us down, but aside from those, we’re in a
freefall toward the planet.”
Jyra did her best to review the gravity data, but her
fingers keep slamming the incorrect keys on the keyboard, which shook as
violently as Mastranada. The ship’s
haphazard descent flummoxed the G sensors. Jyra saw the artificial gravity
system actuator clicking on and off because the readings on Tyrorken’s gravity
kept fluctuating.
“Altitude?” Jyra said.
“Can’t say!” Berk hollered. “No reading!”
Mastranada plunged
through clouds, all various shades of brown. Despite the flashing warning
lights and intermittent blaring of alarms, Jyra couldn’t block out the churning
feeling in her stomach. A dull tan haze was all she could see through the
cockpit glass. The ship suddenly flipped forward as the aft launch thruster
caught a dense patch of air the front thruster missed. The stern-over-bow
tumbling caused the engines to speed the ship toward the ground and then
immediately counteract that trajectory.
“Get out of here!” Berk shouted to Macnelia as her body fell
over his; she managed to maintain a grip on the back of his seat.
“It’s not safe!” Jyra said. “Go!”
Macnelia slid off the seat and clambered for the exit as the
ship began the rotation of its second flip.
“We need a blast from the engines!” Jyra said. “Break the
momentum of the flip!”
Berk raised a thumb from his fist and nodded.
“At negative one hundred and ten!” Jyra said. She stared at
the brown haze through the cockpit glass as she hung upside down in her
harness.
As Berk fired the engines and Mastranada shot toward the ground, Jyra felt the pressure in her
ears relax. Her body also eased off the back of her seat, indicating the speed
of the ship’s descent decreased.
“Altitude?” she shouted.
“We have a reading!” Berk said. “Twenty thousand and we’re
stabilizing.”
The rushing sound of air faded and the computer reoriented
the launch thrusters to correct Mastranada’s
landing position. The ship dropped through the haze and Jyra finally glimpsed
the surface of her home world again. She ignored the thought of her parents
that threatened to push into her mind and focused instead on landing
procedures.
“Any read on where we are relative to TF headquarters?” Jyra
said. Berk shook his head.
“The computer’s still calibrating,” he said. “We should
extend the legs, though. We’ll be on the ground soon.”
Mastranada landed
in a vast plain under a caramel colored sky. The few trees in sight had twisted
trunks and had long been dehydrated by the punishing climate.
Jyra unclipped from the harness and stood up, hoping her
stomach would settle.
“Until the computer catches up, we won’t know much,” Berk
said.
Jyra left the cockpit and headed to the cargo bay. The
straps had held most of the supplies in place. A few loose crates had been
tossed about the room during the landing, but the damage appeared minimal. Jyra
stepped into the passageway, preferring to use the smaller door, rather than
empty most of the fresh air from the ship out of the cargo bay. She was about
to open the door, when she heard a voice behind her.
“Watch out for the hull plates. They’re still too hot to
touch.”
Jyra turned and saw Shandra leaning against the wall. She
looked disheveled, likely caused by the tumultuous landing.
“I will,” Jyra said. “I’m not even sure why I want to go out
there. The air’s horrible.”
Shandra approached, rubbing her right arm with her left
hand.
“Sorry about earlier,” she said. “Sometimes my anger gets
the better of me.”
“Happens to all of us,” Jyra said, hoping she sounded both
nonchalant and sincere.
“It’s just—” Shandra paused. Jyra was suddenly reminded of
when Berk had hesitated before sharing the information about the causes of
Macnelia’s frustration.
“I used to be a metalworker,” Shandra said. “All the scars on
my arms were from regular work, except for one.”
She stopped talking again at the sound of hurried footsteps.
Neeka appeared at the end of the passage.
“Is the computer up yet?” she asked, rushing toward Shandra
and Jyra. Her eyes wide and her hands clenched near her stomach.
“What is it?” Jyra said.
“I remember,” Neeka said. “The Nilcyn code. I remember where
I’ve seen it before!”